Taking that Leap of Faith, by Wendy DeRaud


"There are many talented people who haven't fulfilled their dreams because they over thought it, or they were too cautious, and were unwilling to make the leap of faith." James Cameron

There is a war being waged against our intuitive selves, against the part of us that has hunches, that feels something in our guts, a knowing in our knowers, or a sensing of things, like feeling the vibrations in the atmosphere. Our ability to hear God’s still, small voice.

The rationalists out there don’t feel it, don’t believe it, nor do they want us to be able to live from this vantage point, because it offends their minds.

Don’t misunderstand me, our minds are great and wonderful things, but I’m talking about our rational minds. I believe our rational minds have gotten way too big, and our hearts are needing to be heard and acknowledged.

There is a movement afoot to re-integrate our heads and our hearts, that they can be friends and not estranged cousins who only see each other every few years and only communicate through Christmas cards. The one will go with store bought with embossed signatures, while the other will hand-stamp Christmas tree potato prints, and hand-write personal notes to everyone till her hand is sore....Guess which is which? Yep.

As an artist and an intuitive type, I know very well, and you do too, how our heads like to sabotage our hearts when we know something we can’t explain. Or when we get inspired and think we’re really on to something big and exciting.

Today my husband stepped out and made some declarations to some friends about what he sees happening in the church community we are in. He may have been bold to speak prophetically to them. But not too much later, he began to second-guess himself. Maybe I was too arrogant. Maybe I was presumptuous, I talked too much, I should have...

No, he was right to be bold. They would have told him if he overstepped.

Our rational side is right there to cast doubt on our thoughts and ideas that may come from God. And some of you out there, like me, will even go as far as to say that this is a spiritual attack on our spiritual sensibilities.

 

“Transformation is something I cannot explain - too much analysis might destroy it.” - Sophia Loren

Once, a slimy guy on a tree in a garden said, “Did God really say?”

We’ve grown to easily doubt ourselves, to disbelieve that we can just sense or know or intuit something we couldn’t have known on our own.

It could be an idea for a painting that just “comes” to you.

It could be a fictional character that suddenly appears on the scene like an old friend.

It could be a word of encouragement for a friend in need, that you wouldn’t have thought of on your own.

It could be when you feel compelled to call someone, and they told you that they really needed someone to call at that moment.

Or maybe you believe something so strongly that you decide to move, quit your job, start a new career, or give away all you own, because there is a burning feeling on your heart that you are a part of something much bigger than yourself.

 

But I'm not here to tell you to go ahead and do something foolish! Please don't! 

I’m here to encourage you to take that leap of faith, and when you do, trust yourself in it, that yes, you are one of those brave people who want to live by faith, not always be safe, who believes that sometimes taking risks are necessities of life, if God is the One orchestrating

I’m not saying not to be wise. Wisdom is very important, it is the compass that we yield to as we chart our course and set off on our life’s journey. Wisdom protects us from the foolishness that keeps ourselves as the center of the universe, trusting in our own understanding.

Yes, we can make mistakes. Believe me, I’ve made plenty. But when we’ve given our lives to God, we are His. That’s why we can learn to trust that the place inside of us where He guides and directs is in a place that needs to be cultivated. We need to practice trusting our own guts, our own hunches, our own intuitive knowings, in order to keep step with Him and His plans for us. That's how I want to live.

Because there is new territory to be discovered by us, new paintings, stories, poems, screen plays, and dances to choreograph.

 

Our imaginations are formed and developed from this wonderful place where our heads and hearts dance together, where they coalesce in wonderment and unity.

I’m just encouraging myself as much as I’m encouraging all of us today, that the world needs more of us to step out and make a stab at it, take a wild guess, maybe stumble and fall, but standup again, straight and tall, knowing we’ve got a vision to follow, and we’re going to go for it. Join me, won’t you?

 

 

“Those who dance are called insane by those who don't hear the music.” - Eddie Vedder

 

 

Artist Mark DeRaud working on his latest painting